I GUESS


I guess I would have loved him
If I ever saw him smile
Small lips pulling back
From toothless gums

If I ever touched his hair
(Black or brown or red
It's in the genes
In the genes)

If I ever looked into his eyes
Slight bulge. blinking
Against light new to him
Like everything

New to him

If I ever let his tiny hand
Wrap mostly around my pinkie
Holding on, fingers tight
New nails wafer thin

If I ever smelled his skin
Refreshed after changing
Diaper wadded in the trash
Talc as cologne

I guess I would have loved him
If I ever held him
But I only get to miss him
Until we finally meet

New to me

New to him


copyright William Hayes 2015